I was running through my competition routine this morning on my way to CSI because the mix came up on shuffle And then I realized… why the hell am I reviewing this? I never have to perform it again… and then it actually hit me. That my days cheering and being on Varsity Dance are over. I’m done. My final duty as a Varsity member is to go to the middle school recruitments and help out with try-outs. and then that’s it. I’m done. This was my first week of going straight home after school instead of running to the guard room or the dance studio for cheer practice. it felt weird. And awkward. I have no use for my uniform or my poms or cheer shoes. my bows! the spanks. it’s weird. I miss that moment. cheering. going to competition. not qualifying for nationals at first. and then qualifying a month later. It’s weird. freaky. I haven’t fully come to terms with it all yet…. I’m a little crushed to be honest.